One month anniversary

Sept 3rd, the one month anniversary of my mother's death, the day she went to Heaven. I received a card from a friend that worked with me at the inn. On the cover, "I like to think of sunbeams as those we love, reaching down to remind us they are not very far at all," and inside, "To live in the hearts we leave behind is not to die." by Thomas Campbell. My daughter's sister in law and brother in law invited us for dinner in a couple weeks. I tried very hard to write thank you notes that would touch those people who received them. This young woman is raising a very difficult 4 year old son and I hoped to encourage her. It is very sweet of her to make dinner so that I don't have to cook. Tomorrow I have a riding lesson and then a friend and I are going to the apple orchard. I am dreading Wednesday, the day that I am taking my friend to the restaurant and grocery store. We have been friends for 40 years, but I feel that the friendship is one-sided and that the friend is using me. I know she gets little allowance a week, but I still have trouble reconciling the money I spend. I am considering going to martial arts for a bit. I am afraid that if I don't start back soon, I never will return. But it is my mother's anniversary and I am super sensitive, and probably will not be able to handle the masters' corrections well. I need to be around people that accept me as I am at this moment. I made beef ribs for my dad, brother, husband, two of the adult children and me yesterday. They were delicious. My brother and I both sent thank yous to my mother's sister and brother. My brother seemed upset, saying almost the same thing my sister did, "You wrote them even though I marked them?" I forgot when I was looking at the card message for the flowers to check who was writing the note. But at least I didn't write a thank you to my brother's son. A note came from the education trust fund at our church, and even though I sent notes to all these people, I feel like I should write an acknowledgement of their memorial gifts.