"Bending"

I am trying hard to pull myself together. One loss after another. My uncle, my 90 year old friend who owned the flower shop, my mother, my daughter's friend's grandother, and my very sick cat. Today I was trying to hang a towel on the tub shower rod and as I stepped down, I fell on the wet tile. I bruised the side of my knee and it hurts. Wishing that I could be with extended family and not get upset, because the estrangement causes me to be sad. Hoping that my adult children's hopes and dreams will come to fruition. I need to get back on track and it's difficult. So after several months of not eating well or exercising, I am going to try to eat better (fruits, vegetables, fish and lean meat) and walk 10,000 steps. I will not be continuing in martial arts. I can't do it, and I have to let the instructors know. My dad finally told us what time to be at his house to eat with him on Tuesday. We got to the house and he was making a snack because he thought we weren't coming. I rode my horse yesterday morning. We worked on "bending" where the horse's head and rib cage is tilted to the inside. I have to multi-task, pull the inside rein back, keep the outside rein in the correct position, use the inside leg to press and release against the horse's ribs. I could barely put pressure on with my left leg, but did better with my dominant right leg. Not sure I can learn this well enough for the walk and trot tests next summer. I watch my friend canter and work on making the horse bend, and feel like I'm so far behind. Seems like my coworker is sad because she is missing her "bestest coworkers" and had a bad day at work. She was sick on Monday and I told her it was a "mad moon Monday" and that I missed her.