Wrong Turns

My sister cornered me last night and wanted to talk.  I told that I would talk after class but she said that she was going home. Once in her office she told me that my father had said that I was mad at her.  Suggested that I not bother my dad with such feelings, but call her.  She went to visit my mother to assess her condition, and has decided that my mother has several conditions indicating end of life.  So today, the hospice nurse is coming to evaluate my mother.  I don't know what my mother was told about this visitor.  I don't know if she will really care.  And we still need to decide the proper action to take.  24 hour care at home, a move to a facility.  As she says in the children's movie "Emperor's New Groove," "which one?  which one?"

I know that my parents and those I love cannot live forever.  I look at the photos from last summer, and see how quickly circumstances can change.  I am at peace that I have helped my parents as much as possible to date.  And I will continue to enjoy their company until the end.

I am grieving, but cannot go around with tears in my eyes and a sad face.  I have never lost my parents before, so am learning as I go. I probably will make several wrong turns before the crisis is over.