In the hospital

My mother is in the hospital and has had some tests to try to determine the cause of her pain.  Nothing has shown up in either her blood work or the scan.  She is on morphine to keep her comfortable.    I am not communicating well with my sister and a conversation with my father is difficult too.  I have had no problem with my brother because he is smart enough to refrain from putting in his two cents.  My husband is a good listener.

I will call the skilled nursing facility to check on the admission process for when my mother is discharged from the hospital.    Perhaps go to work a bit late, so I can make the calls.

A very busy week at the flower shop.  Long hours today and tomorrow.  We begin work at 8am and stay til the work is finished--could be midnight both days.  And Valentine's Day is very busy with constant last minute shoppers.  

I trained in martial arts yesterday.  I had worked 11 hours and needed  to expend some energy.  I also wanted to separate myself from the situation with my mother.    My sister called me while I was at class wanting to know where I was and to tell me to make arrangements with the nursing home.

I don't know when I can visit with my mother. Maybe steal an hour and go up to the hospital or wait until later in the week.  What point is there in going, if she is knocked out from drugs?  Her life has become a nightmare.  She is immobile, can't do anything for herself, and on morphine.  However, just two days ago, I went to the house and we laughed.  If this is her life, then I pray for release from her suffering.