Mood lifted

Ever since Saturday, when I felt like I could bite someone (altho there are a couple people I could bite right now), I have been holding my own against seasonal affective disorder. I walked the dogs a couple times in the natural light and on Monday, my mood lightened. I might have to exercise also to increase the seratonin level. Last night we went to a restaurant to celebrate two daughters' birthdays. Our oldest daughter's birthday is early in February but she lives out of state. My dad came with us, enjoyed the meal and the company, but the heavy meal aggravated his stomach and he is resting because he does not feel well. Our youngest daughter has 8 weeks of grad school before graduation. Hoping and praying she can find a good paying job that she will like, not too far away. It will be good for her to be distant from people who undermine her self confidence, question her decisions and criticize. Her fragile psyche does not need this kind of behavior. No one, including me, benefits from criticism. Our youngest married daughter has bought a house, and moving day will be early next month. Hard to move with work and a baby.

Need the sun

My seasonal affective disorder hit me hard today, probably because I haven't seen the sunshine in a few days. My mood caught me by surprise and since I was at work, there was nothing I could do. I couldn't eat at lunchtime because there was no one to take care of the customers. I found out that I won't be working with my friend on Monday. It's better for her, but I will miss her. And I am afraid the colleague I'm working with will be domineering. I will see. So much to do at work that I couldn't finish it all. Three colleagues did not work the past 2 days, so lots of work did not get done. As a way to cope with my SAD, I needed to get outside and walk the dogs, headed out onto the icy sidewalk. I retraced my steps several times when I dropped a mitten or a dog bag. Our puggle who has been dealing with irritable bowel syndrome seemed better tonight. A blessing. The walk helped, cooking shrimp alfredo distracted me. Checked the forecast and sun is forecast for tomorrow, Friday, next Sunday and Monday.

Mind a-whirling

My dog woke me up from a nightmare about David and Louise Turpin--the sick, sick parents who abused their children. I can't make sense of it. Children are innocent and vulnerable, need to be protected and nurtured. I was glad it was a dream but once I was awake, I was awake all night, my mind whirling and whirling. My children had taken Pudgie the dog to the emergency clinic on Saturday. I thought he might have an intestinal blockage. He did not, but the doctor noticed some thickening in the colon wall. Took some xrays and our clinic did an ultrasound, but the photos were inconclusive. I decided to visit a holistic vet who has treated our cats and guinea pig. He said that colon cancer in dogs is rare, suggested that Pudge had irritable bowel symdrome. He wants Pudge to lose some weight and take magnesium and colon treatment. He would have liked Pudge to eat high fiber Royal Canin, but Pudge does not like dry food. I have managed to take the dogs for walks around the school. Really enjoy the company of my 8 month old granddaughter. She can raise her arms above her head and clap her hands. I enjoy time spent with the baby, dogs and my dad. I feel the loss of my mother, my great nephew, my friend who was brain injured in the car accident. My husband suggested that we sell exercise equipment--the bo flex and health rider. Once my daughter decides which pieces of furniture she wants for her apartment, I want to have a sale. Working on a strategy to make it successful. Lent begins on Wednesday. I am going to work on Pope Francis' idea to fast from hurting words, sadness, anger, pessismism, worries, complaints, pressures, bitterness, selfishness, grudges and words.