Giving up worrying

As you know, I have been trying to be supportive, encouraging, giving as opposed to selfish, and good tempered. On Sunday, my coworker did not set her alarm and missed her bus. She asked me if I would give her a ride to work. Now she lives 4 miles east of me and 2 miles east of the store. We got to the store with a minute to spare. My father called the store and asked that I buy some flowers for my mother and bring them by after work. I bought a coral rose and six carnations and took them to the house. Later in the afternoon, I received a text. Would I please make either pasta salad, deviled eggs or potato salad for dinner. I made pasta salad and deviled eggs. I prefer to bake the potatoes and refrigerate them overnight, so they will be cold and firm for potato salad and I didn't have enough time. I tell you this to show that I am making some positive progress. I still firmly believe that my boss should divide the available hours evenly between me and and the other full time workers. And no matter how often I tell myself that I have everything I need, I get caught up in the unfairness, the partiality. I also am trying to change my daughter's perception of me. I want her to remember me as a person with a good sense of humor, non judgemental and even tempered. She will be moving far away in a few months and I want her to take with her the picture of a warm, caring, loving, supportive mom. For the past couple weeks, I have approached daily living with a more relaxed attitude. For years, I have choreographed my life...work, chores, hapkido. I have spent time worrying. Well, I have decided to not worry...it serves no useful purpose.