Tuesday, March 31, 2020
Lockdown
Today marks one week in lockdown. I have been sheltering in place except for a walk with the dogs around the school fields most every day. I have been grieving the loss of Lenten and Easter services, work at the flower shop and watching my three year old and five month old grandchildren grow up. I react to trauma with what I call a "deer in the headlights" response. I am frozen in place. Like most people dealing with trauma, I have happy stretches of time and windows of time when I feel sadness. Music is an important part of my life, but I only began to sing again three days ago. This morning I got out my lap dulcimer after not playing for ages. I had to read how to tune the dulcimer because I had forgotten. I try to use our food and paper products in the most efficient way possible, that is, absolutely no waste. I have roasted a turkey, fashioned turkey croquettes, and a Dutch apple pie with graham cracker crust. The baby wasn't here to eat bananas and they overripened. I used them to make banana bread. I have been sorting in the basement. I talk to my husband and we watch TV and he paints on his tablet and I play word games on my tablet. I am so grateful for the company of my animals and for this journal as I cope with completely new and life changing circumstances.
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